What the Bleep do we Know?

I think the movie we watched really had a big impact on me and my thought process. The idea behind us creating our own destiny is a powerful mindset to have. I think that is what N385 overall has taught us to do. N385 was very soul searching because many of the projects were based on taking a deep look inside yourself and letting your creativity reflect off of what you see. When you are able to do that then you can discover new things, change things, and impact the world. I once read a book called The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown. In the book he talks a lot about the subject of quantum physics and how we all have the power to create our own universe but we just not have been able to tap into that potential just yet. I think what N385 has taught me is that I have the potential to explore my creativity, my knowledge, and what I feel to pave my own way into this world however I want it to be. I know that I have the ability to take my life where ever I want it to go, the biggest challenge for my now is actually doing it.

Identity

We have the power to create our own identity

1. Who are you in the eyes/perception of others? People see what I allow them to see. I show multiple personalities depending on who I am around.
2. How do you see/perceive yourself? I allow myself to see anything I want to see in myself but it gets pretty scary seeing the potential so sometimes I block things out (good or bad).
3. Why are you here? (your definition of here) I am here to be something great. To create my own destiny is something great.
4. What are the implications of your identity to others? (you decide to whom the implications apply - you or others, but be specific) I think the implications of my identity to others all depends on how I choose to impact someone. It all depends on how much I limit myself or how much potential I show them.
5. How are you effected by the identity of others? (are you different around various people - why might that be) I am different around various people because I second guess my own identity. We all want to be accepted in some way, shape, or form.
6. Is identity static? (make sure to show in your project your answer to this) I think identity is not static. You can change aspects of your identity however you want it to be. I compare our identities to our hands. Yes we all have unique aspects of our identity that will always be imprinted in to us just like the ridges and grooves in our fingers, but with our hands we can create and shape anything we want so who's to say we can't shape and mold our own lives?

Fear Factor

For my fear assignment I chose to discuss with the class my fear of myself. I fear myself because I am my own worst enemy. I criticize everything that I do and say. I miss out on opportunities because I feel at times that I am not good enough to do something. I do not want my fear to lead into regret which is my second fear.
After I discussed my fear many of the people in class were able to relate. Others asked questions to understand what the root cause as to why I felt that way.
Thinking of how the class would react to my fear I knew that some people would be able to relate. I did not really think that others would try to help by asking questions to try to understand why I felt that way.
I do not think I would change anything I presented because it came straight from the heart and it was nice to finally get that off my chest and also helped me in coming face to face with my fear.
One of the projects that stood out to me was when one of the students was talking about low self esteem/depression/and sexual assault. Her story was so heartfelt and powerful because you seen true emotions. It made me truly appreciate this class because we get a better understanding of each other and that is a beautiful thing. This class goes beyond academics and talents. It really touches your mind, heart, and soul and I truly appreciate being a part of this class.

Fear Factor

I think that the class will be familiar with my idea of fear because they seen it in movies before. I do not think that they will actually be fearful in class but I think that the idea of it is so unexpected that it will creep people out and if they actually started to see this idea with their own eyes being creeped out could turn into being fearful.

Bliss

A time that I created something that I was really happy about was when I made a jewelry box for my niece's first birthday. This is my first time being an auntie so I wanted to do something special and memorable. I painted and costumized the jewelry box to fit the living style her parents provide for her which is free spirited, earthy, colorful, and of course girly. My niece's birthday was a very special day for me because my niece is my heart. Although it seems like something that is very simple, I was proud to have given her something that she could keep for years.

limitations

A time when one of my limitations got in the way of something I really wanted to do was when I was in high school. I use to always worry about not doing things well enough so I would be nervous to try out for things that I wanted to do. I would be so scared of failure that my nervousness would take over and I would punk out.

55 year old perspective....

I created a fishing pole out of paper clips, string and a molded fish. Many people 55 and older like to fish so that is why I did a fishing pole.

5 Again

I chose to make a figure out of my paper clips. I always liked drawing and making crafts ever since I was a child so the thought of making a figure with paper clips really excited me as if I was 5 again.

I can't see clearly now.....

I chose to explore every other sense besides sight, by closing my eyes and sitting indoors and outdoors. for 15 minutes each. When I finished I wrote down some of the things I heard, felt, or smelled down on paper. Then I compared the things I had sensed indoors and what I sensed outdoors.

When I sat inside the house I felt very calm and still. However, there was a few distractions such as the toilet flushing, walking, and water running. Then at times it felt like someone was standing over me which broke my concentration. So keeping my eyes closed inside the house made me feel uneasy at times. The sense that was heightened the most was hearing because there were so many different sounds going on that it distracted me from keeping my mind calm.

When I sat outside everything seemed peaceful and harmonious. All of the different sounds I heard and the wind I felt just all seem to flow together and it was not distracting. The sense that was the most heightened for me while sitting outside was more of an internal feeling. I felt a connection with nature because everthing just flowed together.

Recap Class Mon 09/19

What I learned in Monday's class is that sensing something goes beyond the 5 main senses we are all familiar with. I believe there are emotional senses that are triggered in your brain. Our memories are based off of our lives and and the experiences we have had in them. Our memories of something is brought back to us by the triggering any of her senses. The sense of smell, sound, or taste, can be much more powerful than our sense of sight. All of our senses have their own importance in what we recognize and discover. Hearing the different projects from each student was an eye opener to the many ways each individual used their senses and what they discovered and remembered from what they were sensing.

A Smile Can Says a Thousand Things about a Person

What does a smile say about someone's personality. They are happy, fun, loving, cheerful, confident, easy going, exciting, or nice? Do you trust a person that smiles? Are they easier to understand than a person that doesnt?

You see this smile at work, school, the grocery store, church, and even at home. Does this smile tell you a thousand positive things about this person?

What if you found out that this smile belongs to a man that is a rapist, serial killer, or con artists?

Does this smile still give you the same impression? Sometimes a smile can hide a thousand secrets.

I remember this......

Something that I rediscovered yesterday that I will always remember is to never be afraid or hesitant to share my ideas. For my egg project I chose not to to do what I really wanted out of fear of offending someone else when in actuallity I was my own worse critic. I was worried about what other people thought about my idea that I altered it when in reality my idea was actually accepted by the whole class. I will always remember to never be afraid to share my ideas, beliefs, or feelings because that is what makes me who I am.

Another thing that stood out to me was how creatively people percieved their eggs. It's very mind blowing how someone can take something as simple as a raw egg and make it into something inspirational and a piece of art.

Egg Assignment

For my "do something with an egg assignment" I chose to switch out the yolk (embryo) and replace it with a baby ultrasound picture. Both human and chicken embryos are delicate, fragile, and requires warmth. The eggshell covers and protects the embryo during the early developmental stages until it develops into a fetus, so I decided to place a baby fetus in place of a chicken embryo. In the picture you see the egg with a hole in it which reveals the baby fetus during it's developmental stage.

Ultrasound pic: www.prenatalviewultrasound.com/contactus.html

Course Expectations

Honestly I do not know what to expect from Seeing Sideways because I do not know what types of assignments or projects we will be doing. The idea of not have a clear concise day by day plan on the syllabus, is actually exciting because it is break away from the normal class structure. However, I believe that this course will offer a different view of understanding, imagining, and creating new ideas and objects from different perspectives.Overall I just hope to see ideas, objects, and even people in a way that I have never seen before.